Saturday, October 3, 2009

A Recap

The first time I met Sel was during the birthday party of my lolo. Mom invited her friend Carmel, who happened to be Selwyn's mom. It was a very long time ago and so all I can recall is I had a simple crush on him back then, being the atenista guy who acted so suave.... We never talked, our eyes never met.



The second time I met Sel was in Philippine Science Highschool. Mom wanted me to try getting in Phi-sci (obviously I failed), and I saw him there... Just a simple glimpse, just a simple stare from me, and not from him.



The third time I met Sel was in his cousin's auntie's party. Now this time around its different. I was the girlfriend of his cousin then... We nodded our heads-an act to say hi, we were inside one car, we played billiards together, yet we still never talked and our eyes still never met.



The fourth time I met Sel was already planned. His cousin and I broke up. The turn of events were quite fast. We became phone pals. We talked over the phone for hours. I had a different name. Then he decided to cut off the phone pal thing and unfolded my real name (which he knew since the first day I called), and so we decided to meet... Our eyes met, we said hi, we talked for hours in Mcdonalds SM North, we went to UP and talked some more, we watched movie (the End of days) and still talked some more after.



The fifth time I met Sel, I knew I was already in love with him... It was the start of the many great moments of my life.



The Heart of a Woman



One of my favorite games when I was a little girl was 'kidnap and rescue'. I used to remember playing with my childhood friends and cousins, and I would insist on being the girl to be rescued. Imagine one uber chubby girl making demands on being the heroine, and no one can protest coz we are all playing in our backyard. Its my home so its my call :)

Every woman simply love the feeling of being wanted and fought for. This desire is set deep in the hearts of every women since they were little girls. To be desired, to be pursued, to be romanced in any way possible are most of women's addictions. We wanted to be the top priority.

Though nowadays, women act as warriors: independent, strong, very much capable of anything, for most men wanted more from us. And so at times we pretend to be the women of twenty first century, blah blah blah. Yet buried deep within our hearts is the desire to be sought after and loved. We wanted to be contiously romanced and pursued. That makes us come alive.




"I want to be beautiful
And make you stand in awe.
Look inside my heart,
And be amazed
I want to hear you say..."