Random

1) It feels Ive already been here for an eternity. I still don’t speak the language. I listen to their music, but I can only hum it. I already know how to get about in most places here, but i still don’t memorize most bus routes and their numbers. I have learned to appreciate their foods but i still dont like nasi biryani. Ive learned to love the people here though, Ive been blessed to live and work with the nicest people from day 1 I was here. But I still cant stop thinking about Phils- my family which includes my loud (sweet) mom every morning, my brothers wrestling my mom and me, my dad waking up early every Sundays to ask what food we like coz our wishes is his command, my young cousins and their naughty smiles, my aunts and their heart problems... my friends, my lifestyle, Selwyn - the most.(3 deep and slow breaths is all I need)

One day at some distant future date, I’ll once again be home. But will i miss Sg? Yeah, I think I will.



2) For a time now, Ive been trying let someone understand some things I believe I understand more. (I may not be gifted with great intelligence but I know Ive been blessed with the counter part of it.) Ive always believe that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. I have learned to understand however that some truths will only be understood at the right time. I just need to be patient and a lot more understanding.

3) "Sometimes we are not allowed to feel things that we are not supposed to feel. Especially if we know exactly where it will lead us. As for me, I don’t want to be tempted or even create my own temptations in any form."

4) I suddenly remembered this person who once told me this quote: 'If the shoe fits but if there’s a pebble in it, it still wont work out perfectly.' I wasn’t able to explain myself. We all have our special shoe. I have mine, and I love it dearly. That precious shoe of mine, had had different pebbles in it. Small, big, round, sharp, sandy. And it made my foot soar, itchy, uncomfortable in many ways. But I simply always take off my shoe and patiently search for that pebble and remove it. I wouldn't let any pebble get in my way of wearing my special shoe coz i know it was made specially for me. I so love being in that shoe - that I polish it everday, I replace the sole if it needs to replaced, I put it neatly in the rack. I know that it will get old and worn out soon but i want to enjoy every minute Im wearing it. And no pebble or may it be sand or water will make me not wear it perfectly, as long as it fits and I can wear it :)



5) Life indeed is a roller coaster. A fast dizzying game of falling over and getting up again. The scariest part for me is the going down part from the very top at a very high speed. No matter how prepared I am, I am still usually caught off guard, and I end up screaming and crying, begging the manong to stop the engine. Whenever I would feel really scared i simply close my eyes, and I don’t see anything anymore. My body moves into different angles but atleast I don’t see anything, and i know the ride will eventually stop. I always try to open my eyes though, no matter how scared I am. I wouldn’t want to spoil the ride, you see. Relating my life into this, Ive learned to believe that the coaster track is my destiny and that God is incharge of the machine - he's the manong :) ... Whenever you feel down and scared, you just let it go and breathe, try to enjoy the ride and simply trust God that He is there for you, everything will eventually come to a stop- and that you will be okay. at the end of the day, you will tell yourself. 'It was one hell of a fun ride'. :)